Project Diary: Sarai’s floral swimsuit, Pt 2
The last time I wrote about making a swimsuit, I shared a bit of my history and battle with body acceptance. Like (I’m assuming) most of us, I’ve struggled long and hard with my attitude toward my body, from accepting the irregularities of scoliosis (mine is severe) to overcoming disordered eating patterns to facing the body dysmorphia I constantly feel raising its ugly head.
There’s one thing other than sewing that has taught me about body love, and that’s sports and athletics. When I started running years ago, it gave me something else to focus on besides how my body looked. I began thinking about it in terms of performance. I learned to have fun with what my body could do, and prioritize that sense of fun over shallow aesthetic.
In the past year, I’ve almost completely switched from running to weightlifting, and that sense of play and fun has only grown – along with my thighs. In fact, my proportions have altered pretty dramatically.
And I’m fine with that. Big thighs mean big lifts. I’d rather feel like wonder woman than look like a model any day. And I’m constantly inspired by all the lady lifters who do amazing things at every size.
Let love rule.
I took these photos on our recent trip to Palm Springs, which seems to be a theme.
And here’s a butt shot, for good measure.
I will also admit that body positivity is still a daily struggle, but I also feel it getting better every day. The more I focus on what I can do and how I feel, the better things get.
I’d love to hear your thoughts on body image, and especially whether athletics, sports, or other physical activities have changed the way you treat yourself. What’s your experience?
PS: if you missed it, the first part of this post covers the details of the swimsuit and how I made it.